My struggles with Emetophobia

“If you suffer with Emetophobia, you are not only repulsed by the idea of vomiting, you fear it. And you probably have at least one of these fears, too:

Emetophobia is my agoraphobia’s co-conspirator. I’ve struggled with this since the very beginning of my agoraphobia but I didn’t understand how bad it really was. Nausea is a big side effect when it comes to my anxiety (and many others) which made me kind of disregard the fact that this really could be a much bigger problem. I always knew my anxiety played out the same every time; I’d get anxious, feel sick from the anxiety, then I would have this huge worry that if I left my safe zone that I was in, I would vomit. For most people the thought of throwing up is unpleasant, but not scary. Because really, nothing scary happens, you do it, clean it up or flush the toilet and you’re good to go again, right? That’s not the process my head goes through, even though I know all of this. My emetophobia is the cause of at least 80% of my worries when it comes to my agoraphobia. When I’m out of my safe zone (my home), bathrooms become my safe zone. I always need to know if there is one and if so, where. I’ve been struggling with both of these things for years now and I can only recall TWO times when I’ve had all of those thoughts where I’ve actually thrown up. Nevertheless, every time I feel sick, I still get all of those thoughts, which really shows how powerful your brain is.

However, since realizing what I’m really dealing with; that the fear really is an issue in itself and it’s not just my agoraphobia, it’s gotten much easier to fight back against. Every time I feel stomach sick, I take some deep breaths which really help. **Never underestimate the power of deep breathing** Then, I can remind myself that I rarely ever vomit and that if I do, I’m not going to die, it happens to so many people. It’s still something that I deal with almost every day but it’s slowly becoming easier.

Published by: agoraphobiclife19

My name is Holly, I’m nineteen years old and 4 years ago I began having all of the signs of agoraphobia. Nobody really understands why or how it began, including myself... I had a cold and missed a couple of days of school and when I went to go back my life felt fully changed. Well not only felt, but it was. I was soon after diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Panic Disorder, and social anxiety which had given me a pretty mild case of agoraphobia. At the time I would not have considered it mild, but after multiple years I’ve realized my agoraphobia at that time was one of the easier times... the only reason it was harder was because I had absolutely no coping mechanisms, no distractions, I didn’t know how to help myself. I leaned on my friends so much, they ended up with at least half of my stress, but now 3 years later, I have learned so many coping mechanisms, I’ve learned so much about how the brain works and communicates when it comes to mental disorders... I’ve gotten much better dealing with my illness without having to lean on anybody but myself. This is such a incredibly small part of my story and the journey I’ve been on so if you’re wanting information or help or even just to see if my story resembles yours or somebody’s you love, check back for my blog posts or check out my Instagram that I’ll have linked below! I’m always happy to answer questions, or give advice or even just some info so if you want somebody to talk to, feel free to go to the contact section and send me an email! I hope I can help in anyway, Holly

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